The lottery

Each week we play the Lottery. We sometimes wonder what we would do if we were to win millions. 

Our first conclusion is that we're basically happy with our lives. We don't particularly want to move house. It's a nice size for us. We would be lost in a great mansion.

One thing about being on a low income for most of our lives is that it has caused to realise what is necessary for our sense of well-being & to realise that it doesn't come from material goods. I'm not denying it is nice to have beautiful things around you, to be able to travel abroad, to have new cars etc & it is a relief to be in a position not to have to worry every time a bill drops through the letter box or something breaks down. But ultimately there is only so much you want to eat & drink. Does a new car really matter, provided the existing one keeps going? No it doesn't.

We're also becoming aware no matter how much money we had what would really make things better cannot be bought. As we get older, & our health deteriorates, our energies reduce, we end up feeling even if we could afford to do somethings, we just aren't physically up to doing them. 

As it is the Fox is anxious about how he is going to cope with the flight to Germany for our holiday next month. We're telling ourselves that, once there, we can just sit on the boat & watch the world go by. That shouldn't be too demanding. There's plenty to do at the various stopovers but it isn't essential to actually get off the boat to see it all. Our usual self-catering holiday isn't really on. The Fox is very anxious if he would be able to drive himself or even cope with a long drive by someone else. That won't change, no matter how much money we had. We can't buy good health.

We have been lucky in one thing in life & that is in love. We found each other long ago & that love has got us through everything, all the ups & downs of life. We celebrate our 36th wedding anniversary next week. That can't be bad.

Meanwhile I will get back to worrying who will be coming tomorrow to do the cleaning & when. Angie is still on holiday. I'm hoping it will be Kelly again but I'm not sure. Maybe that's something money could get us, guaranteed reliable staff to help look after us.