The wonder of sleep

I’m relieved to say I feel fine today. No adverse after effects from my Indian head massage. I slept deeply, one side effect I really appreciate.

It’s been a long time since I slept deeply. Sleep is one of those things you take for granted when you can do it easily. When I was younger my head barely needed to touch the pillow before I was out solidly until the morning. Not so these days. These days my mind whirls with often black thoughts. My knees waken me in pain. The bed & I get so hot as my knees sizzle. I thrash around, ending up throwing off sheets or getting up to cool off. Sometimes I even end up falling out of bed head first & needing help to get up out of the tangle of bedding. I rarely sleep solidly. And as I rarely sleep for long at a time I rarely get into deep sleep. But the head massage does seem to enable it for a day or two a week. And with extra sleep, I feel extra energy, enough to have some enthusiasm for life.

I’m finally beginning to relax & accept I won’t hear anything more from the hospital until I go again to see the doctor in charge of radiology early in March. Meanwhile I’m steadily getting more comfortable. Life is slowly beginning to seem more normal. Even the Fox is beginning to relax a bit.

It’s been an exhausting, stressful 6 months or so. And it’s not over yet. However there is a temporary reprieve in which we are trying to put off worrying if all the treatment has worked & relax to live life normally for a while.