Saturday 29 October 2016

Home again



Well, I’m safely home. Bruised & battered admittedly. I did in fact come home on the day of the op, around midnight. We stopped on the way home at the 24hour Asda to collect a quick microwaveable meal as I’d only had a slice of toast to eat all day.

Yesterday morning was spent half dozing. I suspect it was partly the long day before, partly the last of the anaesthetic as my op had been in the afternoon.

In the afternoon, we had a return trip to Kendal as, in our rush to get home, we’d left my sandals at the hospital. I soon discovered just how many potholes there are on the road to Kendal & back. I ended up holding on to my breast to ensure it didn’t joggle around too much.

We came back on the country lanes as there was a long tailback on the motorway – rumour suggested it went as far south as an accident on the M62. After passing a stretch where some hedging had been done, a message came up to say our tyre pressure was low. We stopped at the golf club, partly to give me a break from the jostling, partly to check the tyre. There’s no sign of a flat. However, the Fox will go into Kwikfit to check later today – I can’t face another bumpy ride so soon, even if it’s only to Lancaster rather than Kendal.

I’m now doing my physio exercises to avoid a frozen shoulder. The Fox is doing the cooking – Spicy Turkey & Sweetcorn today. I shall have another quiet day.

Half my breast, beyond the dressing is clearly bruised. However, the pain level is on the whole less than that I regularly have in my knees. I can cope with it. At the moment I’m just a bit frustrated as I’m not to raise my left arm too high, lift with it or push down on it. It’s making the practicalities of daily life a little more difficult as I usually push myself up with both arms to stand. If the Fox helps me up, he usually pulls on one arm while I push with the other – impossible at the moment. It also means I cannot push myself in the wheelchair.

After the weekend the main dressing is to come off & I’m to have a shower, carefully patting dry around the wound. One good thing is that they managed to remove both the tumour & the sentinel lymph gland from just the one incision, not the two predicted.

I shall remain radioactive for another week or two so will need a doctor’s note if I’m travelling abroad. However, I’ve no plans to go anywhere. The blue dye remains apparent in my breast but nowhere else. My urine had returned to a normal colour so clearly the dye is working its way out of my system.

In another couple of weeks I will be seeing the surgeon again. Then I will hear the results of the tests on the removed matter & find out what further treatment, if any, will be needed. Hopefully I will then have a clearer idea when the whole business will be over & life will be able to settle back to normal. We’ll then try to work out some holidays. I suspect we will be ready for a break. France already seems a long time ago. We may even try for a few quiet days away in Britain once I feel more like myself again.

Wednesday 26 October 2016

Getting ready



I’m trying to get on top of all the chores before the hospital trips begin. Beds have been changed, washing done & dried. This morning I did the ironing. Yesterday it was the big food shop, though whether I’ll feel up to cooking is dubious. At least there are plenty of ingredients for the Fox to have a go at cooking.

Soon it will be time to turn blue. I wonder how long I’m likely to stay that colour. I’ve not thought to ask. Maybe they can tell me when I go to get the dye injected in.

I've bought a puzzle magazine to keep me going through the long hospital waits I see are ahead of me. Even this dye injection is supposed to take two hours. I presume it is the usual minute to inject then a couple of hours before the scan to check the dye is going where it ought to. Then there will be the wait from 7.30am for the actual op, which may not be until the afternoon. Much as I appreciate there will no doubt be people coming to talk – the surgeon, the anaesthetist – it may still be a long wait. After that there will probably more sitting around for the radiotherapy & chemo. All time for thumb twiddling which I’m not very good at. At least a puzzle book should keep me mentally occupied.

I’ve made two little piles of overnight things, one for me, one for the Fox, ready to pack. Some things e.g. medication, will have to wait until the morning of the op.

I think we’re all set. Now we just wait. And wait.

Tuesday 25 October 2016

Changing seasons



Nights of late have been cold. You’ve felt the reduction in temperature by 4pm. As a result the lawns have been covered with water droplets in the morning & remained damp all morning.

The autumn is definitely descending upon us. Leaves are turning golden or red. The first bare trees are emerging.

Another sign of the time of year is the regular appearance of Robin. He struts around the edges of the raised horseshoe of garden, before darting off to rummage on the damp lawns for worms. Indeed all the birds seem to be busy, trying to put on weight to keep them going through the long winter months.

Next weekend the clocks change. We will once more be cooking & dining in an illuminated room. It’s time for curtains to be drawn, as though wrapping them around the house to keep it warm. It’s definitely time to appreciate the joy of central heating & to snuggle down in the eiderdown of our home.